I have believed from day 1 that the “top cats” venue would be the 86’s home. I knew that God would deliver the funds for us to close and I know He will deliver the means to do the remodel. I know that one day it will be my “job”. I believe all those things without a shadow of a doubt. Sure it may take awhile or the money may not come for 9 days past closing – but I knew God would provide.

The flip side of that is as I sit here there is a lot on my plate that only a divine intervention could fix. I have done all that I can think to do…I have prayed and I have tried to remedy the issues myself. And well neither have gotten me anywhere. I have prayed very specifically for the needs – listing the exact amount. Yet I have no faith that it will come through.

I am a child of God. I know that He doesn’t wish to see me suffer and that He provides for my needs. But as the rubber hits the road in this moment – I don’t see it happening.

Last night I shared this with the folks at The Connection. They know I am in over my head and need prayer and action.

I am trying to not speak the negative of all that is going on. I am trying to speak of the positive. I am trying to focus on where I do see God working. The verse below in bold is my cry right now.

Mark 9:23-25 (NIV)

“‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for him who believes.”

Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

When Jesus saw that a crowd was running to the scene, he rebuked the evil spirit. “You deaf and mute spirit,” he said, “I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.”

I am grateful to be a part of a church that loves everyone, no matter what.

I am grateful for amazing artists like Dale Chihuly who challenge me to be more creative.

I am grateful that I was able to see U2 this year.  There is nothing like it.

I am grateful for the chance to be able to experience new things and enjoy life.