Faith
Faith – it’s something I have and don’t have. This week it dawned on me that I (in general) have more faith for others than I do in regards to myself.
I have believed from day 1 that the “top cats” venue would be the 86’s home. I knew that God would deliver the funds for us to close and I know He will deliver the means to do the remodel. I know that one day it will be my “job”. I believe all those things without a shadow of a doubt. Sure it may take awhile or the money may not come for 9 days past closing – but I knew God would provide.
The flip side of that is as I sit here there is a lot on my plate that only a divine intervention could fix. I have done all that I can think to do…I have prayed and I have tried to remedy the issues myself. And well neither have gotten me anywhere. I have prayed very specifically for the needs – listing the exact amount. Yet I have no faith that it will come through.
I am a child of God. I know that He doesn’t wish to see me suffer and that He provides for my needs. But as the rubber hits the road in this moment – I don’t see it happening.
Last night I shared this with the folks at The Connection. They know I am in over my head and need prayer and action.
I am trying to not speak the negative of all that is going on. I am trying to speak of the positive. I am trying to focus on where I do see God working. The verse below in bold is my cry right now.
Mark 9:23-25 (NIV)
“‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for him who believes.”
Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
When Jesus saw that a crowd was running to the scene, he rebuked the evil spirit. “You deaf and mute spirit,” he said, “I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.”